Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Ruining Food

*Thunk Thunk Thunk*

That might just be the worst sound in the world as far as I'm concerned. You see, in the world of professional baking, the things you bake need to be perfect.

*Thunk Thunk Thunk*

That's the sound of cupcakes, cookies, bars, and cakes being thrown into the garbage. The same cupcakes, cookies, bars and cakes that I just spent the morning slaving over. Underfilled, overfilled, underbaked, overbaked...

*Thunk Thunk Thunk*

With every "thunk", my heart sinks a little bit. You see, I hate ruining food. What a horrible waste. A waste of time, resources, money, butter... the list goes on. There's nothing more humbling than that sound. That sound means that you didn't get it right. That sound means that it wasn't good enough. That sound means that you failed. I can't tell you how many times I've heard that sound in the past month since starting at the bakery and, so far, I can't say that it's gotten any easier. Perhaps in due time, i'll be able to accept this food ruining as an inevitability. Par for the course. You live you learn. If at first you don't succeed.... As of right now, though, it feels like an epic fail.

I keep charging forward, though, despite the symphony of "thunks." This isn't an easy job, and if it were, then it would be a waste of time. What'll it be, then? A waste of time? Or a waste of butter? I'll choose the latter, personally!

"One should not pursue goals that are easily achieved. One must develop an instinct for what one can just barely achieve through one's greatest efforts." —Albert Einstein